There’s nothing like a massive change in your life to force you into understanding the simple nature of impermanence. It’s funny as I thought I had a fairly good grasp on this concept, little did I know the difference between intellectualising something and actually living it.

I have been living in a completely different world these last few months. Watching life go on around me, assessing peoples reactions, and trying my hardest not to slip into a vortex which was threatening to drag me down. I very easily could have become bitter and angry, and some days still feel this threatening. But my practice continues to hold a mirror up and show me how to be a good person amidst the suffering and change.

I have decided to embrace the change, rather than run from it. Some may say that bringing change into your life after such a tragedy is in itself running from it, I say it’s a good excuse to shake things up while they are already shaken. A few simple changes are happening in my business. I’m no longer running continual ongoing classes, but rather taking things in blocks of 4-8 weeks. This way myself and my students are able to commit to each other, say “lets commit to practice in a more intense manner for the next little while, see what happens, then reassess if this is the path for me.” In between these intensive blocks I will be heading to Byron to work, train and practice. I feel happy without committing to anything too long term at the moment as I try to convince my husband to buy property in Northern NSW, so I can live out a long time dream of living in Byron Bay and sending our daughter to a Steiner school. Saying this out loud will perhaps push it to happen, but also it may not, I’m ok either way.

I have also changed my logo a little. Purple is the colour of the crown chakra – ‘Sahasrara’ or ‘Thousand Petal Lotus’. This represents us being in tune with our Highest Self, leading us to liberation from limiting patterns. In light of recent events in my life I feel the need to develop even more of a connection to something higher than the mind/intellect/ego, and bringing this colour into my logo represents all of this, and more which I will go into further down the track, perhaps. HappyFit is stated simply, it is what it is. I am here to bring a little Happiness and Fitness, through movement and stillness, to those who are ready to walk the path.

I am bringing in a more streamlined way to purchase passes, book classes and check my schedule. This will, eventually, work for all of us in simplifying things so you will know where I am at all times, and I hope to see you on the mat as often as I can.

Finally I want to thank all of you who have stood by me and supported me over the past few months. Honesty it has been an eye opener to witness those who are able to step up and speak openly with me about my pain, and those who are not comfortable in acknowledging it. I see it as testament to you as a person, and how comfortable you are with discomfort. I feel those who cannot face it are simply the lucky ones who have probably not suffered much, and those who can are the ones who have struggled through their own losses and setbacks and can see life for what it is – a constant state of flux, change and impermanence. Wherever you are within this realm it’s ok, and I appreciate whatever love you have been able to give.

“To exist is to change, to change is to mature, to mature is to go on creating oneself endlessly.”

Henri Bergson